Deep Dive 🤿

I’ve been asked to delve further into what I mean when I say ‘difficulties’ - I’m not going to go into it all. I’ll give you a flavour.

My health. March to August, I’ve never been more confused about what my body is going through than I did in that period.

Let’s take it back to December 2023, my neck was not moving. Couldn’t look left, right, turn my head back. It was a unique experience, to say the least. I ignored it because I got some movement back three weeks later. Fast forward to March 2025, my hand was shaking pretty much uncontrollably. The pain in my forearm was insane, and I had no idea what the cause was. I visited doctors, they told me we need to investigate. I got sent to do scans, scans that never came. I got sent to the physio, no changes. I was getting sent back and forth, no answers. I got put on sick leave for two weeks, then a brace for another four. Still, no answer or solution. I hit a point where I was fed up. Bro, I had nerve damage and just had to walk around with it.

So, I’m going around trying to fix my arm/hand/neck, no idea which to call it. My next issue came, I had a lump in my neck and it was going mental. Luckily, I found out it was a swollen lymph node from years ago so we don’t even need to go into that. Let’s return to my neck muscles, I was in constant pain. My back, constant pain. I lost count of time, all I had on my mind was pain. No pain no gain though right. It got to a point that I wasn’t trying to talk about it because if we’re being frank nobody was trying to hear ‘oh my neck, my neck.’ I thought to myself, just try and get this fixed.

I won’t lie, the doctors have played Duck Duck Goose with me. I was chasing and chasing, nobody wanted to give a clear option. I may have done more research on my symptons than I did on my dissertation. That probably says more about my academic approach than anything.

My scans, I actually got the answers I was looking for on the 30th of August. All clear, nerves responding well, muscular wear a bit of physio should fix. August was a good month, I found out my pain would go and nothing was permanent. Yes, I missed a trip to Ghana and some other things in general. Unfortunately, I could do nothing about that. In all honesty, if I write everything here there’ll be nothing to talk about when someone says what have you been up to Denz. Let’s leave it here.

Don’t even feel sorry for me, I promise I’m cool. It was difficult, but we’re live. We’re always, always live. You know me, life goes on all the time.

I ask one thing. If I have not been around recently, forgive me. I’ve been trying to just regroup and recalibrate the last few months, and it hasn’t been mad easy. Luckily, we’re back on track.

I’m in a good spot now, great even. Yes I’ve been stuck in a bad place mentally at times. I didn’t want to admit it, but this is the point of this piece. Let’s call it vulnerability or whatever.  I have felt a huge amount of frustration, and I’ve been all in my head. Now, I’m much happier. The worst part of it is done, now we look forward.

Some good things have come recently, and we’re just getting started! Let’s run it.

Mightbe4s ✍️